lately i've been thinking about what i can do,

i've been stressing to fall back in love with you.

i'm so sorry, i couldn't follow through.

i can't go on this way, i've got to stop this.

you've been wonderful in all that you can be,

and baby, i'm greatly thankful.

i'm trying so hard to take us back to where we were before.

but i think i'm done, i just can't do this anymore.

you know we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now.

we've been walking in circles for some time,

and i finally think we should head for the finish line.

so believe me, i'm sorry.

surprisingly, i'm actually ok with this moving on thing.

i'm actually not crying typing this post.

thanks for making me stronger eh.

thanks for making me realise, riduan.

yay!

i want to forget you.

i want to forget you.

i want to forget you.

i want to forget you.

i want to forget you.

i want to forget you.

i want to forget you.

i want to forget you.

i want to forget you.

i want to forget you.

i want to forget you.

but, can i?
argh!

and to that one person:
don't think that you're all that.
first telling me this and
the next, saying something different.
please, better think it through before saying anything.
and you told me what?
'girls, they come and go.'
look at yourself.
you should be ashamed.
i don't care, and i don't think other girls cares
about bikes or money or looks.
i don't think it's me or them other girls who goes for those.
i think it's just you.
you're too fussy.
and being fussy won't get you anywhere.
get me?
get a life, you pussy~

and oh, i did some theory of my own.

in conclusion,

all boys, guys, men = assholes.

agree?

that's the card with the flower.

and the cake from mumy.

love you people! <3

hello you people.

yesterday was a w e s o m e !

despite someone forgetting my birthday.
i knew it. fat hope.

and because of that (and other old reasons), we finally, officially broke up.

yes sir, we did.
i had enough with his craps lah. aiyooo.
all the arguments.

but,

i totally had fun with my girls.

lots of gossiping and latest stories. haha.

we went for a quick lunch and did some window shopping.

thanks you girls, for spending the time with my on my birthday.

and hell yeah! i'm 18!

like, finally.

later that evening went to meet my friend for movie.

we watched fast & furious 4.

not bad lah. but i think it's too short.

the cars were all so awesome.

haha, that's probably it.

nothing much right?

but it's the thought that counts.

i got a daisy and a big card from my dawls.

lunch with 'khehe' was, no comments.

haha.

out with family and the rest was a blast.

nuff said, the food was grrrr-eat! and i ate a lot.

haha.

hope tomorrow will be great!

happy birthday wak lala & abang ami!

semoga muda rezeki & panjang umur!

my two favourites~

i'm suppose to be asleep right now.

mumy sudah bising.

and it's only what? 11? -_-"

haha.

i think, i'll be meeting 'khehe' tomorrow.

right after school.

(obviously, i'll go home and change.)

if! he can get up early. maybe by 2.30?

then after lunch, hantar saya balik.
(don't worry baby, i still love you.)

since he's off to work at 6.

boohoo.

so sekejap.

then get change for dinner with familia.

wak lala's and abang ami's birthday is tomorrow.

celebrate together-gether. lol

dah setahun tua. hehe.

by the way,

school was cool.

ha ha ha.

oi! support SPP eh?

lol

it's so kecoh.

first mumy said it was on the 19th.

then plan changed to the 17th.

kesian abang ami.

i-owe-you-one date with 'khehe'?

(i don't want to put his name. my problem. lol)

boohoo.

now how?

he'll get mad for sure.

and! i don't know. :(

dan saya beharap dia tidak akan memarahi saya.

and change the date to the 19th instead.

or!

follow birthday girl and boy,

then off to meet him.

we'll see.

i'm missing boyfriend.

chibai.

today i ate a lot for dinner.

hehe. not!

i was forced to eat.

but only took a little.

yay! schooling tomorrow!

less boredom, i think.

but then again, it kinda suck.

meeting them qyn, rai and mamas at small mac.

for a quick breakfast then off to sKoOl. -.-"

and,

satu budak tu cakap nak jumpa saya.

end up bangun lambat.

tak jadi, pasal boss called.

so! someone owes me one.

huahuahua.

aha, i was browsing through my picuture folders. and i saw these.

look at how we've changed girls!

from these to this.

it's a saturday,

GRRRR-EAT!

aku nak keluar besok!

tidak peduli.

last seh before school.

i dont care!

i hope boyfriend doesn't forget my birthday.
or me.

am i not your girlfriend?

nari aku very hyper because aku post 3 entries.

i freakishly ate a lot just now.

until 3rd helping to aunty's very yummy laksa.

and 2nd helping to her carrot cake.

and the doctor said i have to watch what i eat if i'm taking the pills or i'll be fat. :(

i want to be sexy like beyonce tau. -.-"

at kak juli's we were all talking about the rojak inccident and holidays and about kain.

mummmmms. haha.

i want to go bali! eh?

and adik perempuan aku naik syiok keluar dengan boyfriend.

tinggalkan akuuuuu. boohoo.

by the way, baby kak juli cuuuuuuute!

officially 8 more days!

"18 & life" - sufiyan. -.-"

eh! why don't i have the space between the paragraphs?

there's actually spaces, you know! aiyoo.

i've cut my hair! yay!

now very short. not!

sayang eh nak gunting ni rambut.

i swear, i felt like crying everytime the woman snips my hair.

and i will kept on asking mumy, "pendek tak?", then and again.

haha. paranoid.

and i hate that i love you.

i remembered singing this song with you.

and the 'lucky' song macam orang gila on the phone.
and when i talk for so long,
and then suddenly hear you snore over the other line.

fact is, aku rindu kau!

tried so hard, play a couple of acts.

but darn, i can't.

you're everywhere, everyone i see is you.

whenever i wanted to move along

trying to get rid of you, everything,

and i really mean everything,

reminds me about you.
even my guy friends.
argh!

this may sound stupid. i know.

but ini semua benar!
because for a fact that you don't even noticed my existence anymore!

bahhhh.

i hate this. :(
i hate you.
we're never getting back to square one.

guess it's been weeks since i've posted anything.

by the way, to make things clear for you babies out there:

that's one. haha.

today's tuesday and god dammit!

lagi lama nak sekolah.

i miss school. haha!

i'm going out!

maybe if daddy allows.

which i don't think he will.

i want to go out!

please daddy? *sad puppy face*

and, hoho.

i miss boyfriend.

boohoo.