Wednesday, April 29, 2009
{ 11:30 PM }
lately i've been thinking about what i can do,
i've been stressing to fall back in love with you.
i'm so sorry, i couldn't follow through.
i can't go on this way, i've got to stop this.
you've been wonderful in all that you can be,
and baby, i'm greatly thankful.
i'm trying so hard to take us back to where we were before.
but i think i'm done, i just can't do this anymore.
you know we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now.
we've been walking in circles for some time,
and i finally think we should head for the finish line.
so believe me, i'm sorry.
days turned into weeks, then months.
i can do this, i'm moving on.
i don't want to have the same song on repeat.
i don't want to cry everynight thinking about what mistakes that i've done to deserve this fate.
i don't want to wait, i don't want to do things first.
i hate giving in to you.
i hate sacrificing for you.
i hate having the feeling of breaking down in front of mumy when we start talking about you.
i hate you being so selfish.
and you know, it's you who's being childish.
it's you who needs to change, baby.
not me.
so yes, i had enough.
i've tried so hard, and i don't think you're giving any effort.
the effort to show me that you did really love me.
you're pathetic.
surprisingly, i'm actually ok with this moving on thing.
i'm actually not crying typing this post.
thanks for making me stronger eh.
thanks for making me realise, riduan.
yay!